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TIRED
Have you ever got that feeling that everything isnt going right? that the would for as you know it could end and no one would give a damn?
Life right now is more then complicated!
Its more and more drama every stinkin day and i cant take it anymore!
This morning i was called a liar, a bitch and last night a whore! all by the people in my family...does that even sound remotely normal or correct???
Well of course i havent cut yet...today anyway! but the way this shit is going it doesnt seem to far off.
I cant stand it anymore, the depression i feel from him only adds to the pain i deal with at home.
i cant take it anymore, all i want to do is curl up in a ball and cry, scream, and die! everywhere i go it never seems to end, all the pain and guilt never seems to subside...EVER!
Life seems so...pathetic and worthless! The pain never seems to end and it aches inside of me like no other pain ive ever felt before. my home life sucks and everything just doesnt seem to be turning heads up any time soon!
what could there possibly be to do to change it all around?
maybe i just want to get caught to get sent off so i dont have to live in this hell i call home!!!!

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	wingedrivers 2007-11-15 20:08 (link)
	Just try to remember anything that helps/is good. Here at least is a good place to come to. We won't call you those names. ^.^ But cutting yourself will just leave scars and reminders, y'know? Even if it might ebb away some emotional pain, it won't help you out in the long run. (Reply to this)

dreamweaver87
2007-11-16 10:43 (link)

Life does suck. But if you stick it out..It does have its good days. And the good days are what will keep you holding on. My home life sounded a lot like yours. My father beat me..I was kept from my mother for 5 years..My step-mom was the biggest bitch in the world..I was ALWAYS grounded and my life was slipping though my fingers. But I held on. The years seemed to drag on the closer I was to freedom. 18. It finally came and I ran far away from all my problems and never looked back. All you have to do is hold on for that much longer. Now I'm going to be 20 in December. I have a husband and a 4 month old daughter. My life is so much better now. Because I held on..Keep your chin up. It does get better...I promise. Even if it doesn't seem like it will right now. The pain never goes away...It just doesn't hurt as much.
Put on some music and drift away for a while.
Good song...Three Days Grace: Home.
You should listen to it.
It always helped me..
If you wanna vent...I'll be here.
Even though you don't know me.
I've been in your shoes and I know how much one friend can help. If you have a Myspace add me! My e-mail on Myspace is omiehasmyheart@aol.com

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